Controlled Chaos

Welcome to Controlled Chaos, a podcast for the high-achieving, overthinking, emotionally exhausted professionals living with Bipolar Type 2 and PTSD.I’m Alexis Smalls, a healthcare consultant, trauma survivor, and a woman learning how to lead, work, and live while managing a mind that doesn’t always cooperate.This space isn’t polished or perfect.It’s unfiltered, honest, and necessary.Every episode is a deep breath for the ones masking their symptoms in meetings, managing deadlines between depressive spirals, or questioning their worth after every emotional wave.Here, we talk about what it really means to show up professionally when your nervous system is always on edge, and how to build a life that makes space for both your ambition and your diagnosis.If you’re craving truth, community, and conversation that understands the both and of being successful and struggling, you’re in the right place.